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Saturday, July 31, 2004

Well, havent been blogging for sometime, its a busy wk 4 me.. Hmm, b4 I forgot, tis is my 100th post! Nth reali special, juz sae 4 fun.. I was shocked, reali shock.. Coz I recieve a msg tat I hav to perform 4 national day.. I tot I had step down? Y I nid to go back, Mr Ling promise us so, den y he brk the promise.. The most 2pid thing of all, Mrs Lee.. She wan us to perform n oso sae dun wan us, sae its too late to 'cancel' us out of tis so ask us to practise hard.. She should noe, many of us r sec 4, prelim coming.. N oso the few of us r not gd in result either, y made thing hard 4 us? Bcoz of tis, relationship btwn some frenz grew worst silently.. They mistaken tat tis is wat we wan.. NO, I dun wan tat either, y we had to play as devil to ask ppl to go 4 the cheer routin.. I oso can see they r very unwilling.. Was telling mark ytd tat I'm reali wish to leave the sch 4 the first time.. The sch giving ppl so much pressure, wat they reali wan? We r not super hero tat can do so much thing, even in spiderman 2, hero will be tired too n we r not..

Now I'm reali had enuff, so tired everyday so on.. How I wish to go out wif my parents juz now but I'm deadly beat.. Due to practice, a lot of thing I cant go according to my plan.. Spend hours to practise den hours to rest.. Worst till, I was sick, making everything worst.. Frm a flu to headache, I think I oni can watch my family going out tml.. Shouldn't tok too much now, juz full of anger n depress now.. Will blog next time den..

Kit said it at 7:39:00 PM

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

So tis is wat I mean last time.. Dunno how to pharse it till I saw tis.. lol.. Hmm, mark ask me to dl tis program call 'Hello', I am playing wif it now.. Tis is my first post using tis ok.. But it look not bad.. Anyway, juz now was eating wif Tanapol, clarence n mark.. I havent scold clarence yet, I ask him where to take 72, he asked me to cross the road n walk straight.. I oso dunno where it will lead me to.. End up, I took 1 more bus to the interchange to take 72.. So troublesome, dun let me see him online or he will be dead! Lol~ Juz kidding..

So no longer in the NDP squad, I dun even noe where is my uniform n my boots r spoil.. Hehe, I think everything under me wun hav gd ending juz like my phone.. So I cant borrow uniform frm other rite.. Dun take part will be better, at least now hav chance to watch the other.. Dun it sound like fox cant eat the grape n sae its sour, I translate it frm chi.. Haha~ So quite angry n feel funny at the same time, I remember not long ago, I sang n clarence record it lor w/o my notice.. Juz now he blackmail me n let Jay n Tanapol to listen.. I dun hav face liao, its totally out of tune.. Haiz~ I wun sing again, so everyone beware of clarence k.. Oh ya, to Tanapol n Arshad, I didnt sae anything la, I'm not so bad but juz stop measure smth in clz k.. Haha~ Pretty tired now, will blog next time..

Kit said it at 5:05:00 PM

Monday, July 26, 2004

As It Comes To An End
by Kay

As I sit here in class,

I observe my friends

And look forward to the year

Coming to an end.

It's gonna be sad

To say good- bye.

I'll miss everyone.

I know I will cry.

I remember the day

When I came back

To be with my friends

And get on the right track.

We had so many moments;

Some bad, most great.

I'll always remember the love

And erase the hate.

I don't wanna say good- bye

To all my friends.

I don't want this year

To come to an end.

Wat u all think of tat poem? I found tis online when I was looking through some poems.. I like tis, coz its smth like my feeling now.. At times, leaving tis sch is my wish.. Seriously I dun like here, full of pressure.. Its like we try to achieve gd result so on not 4 ourselves but 4 the sch, so the sch position will rise.. Wat a sch! However I dun wish to leave, my frenz, I cant bare to.. Out of sudden, I dunno wat to sae, juz cant put feeling in words, mayb I'm reali bad in expressing myself ba.. Friendship is smth we cannot see using our eyes but we can feel using our heart.. Thinking of tis now, like wat mark sae, 2yrs down the road, will we still be as close as now? I dun dare to sae YES! wif confident.. 2 yrs later, I'm scare tat we wun even remember once we r gd frenz, once we do tis n tat together or even once we quarrel like kids.. Loneliness, its a feeling when someone impt step into ur life n leave again.. For the past few wks I'm thinking, how to thx my frenz n tell them I'll miss them.. Its quite hard, coz there is thing called 'pride'.. Hey, I dun understand y it got to do wif it but its juz related.. Everytime tot of tis, the useless me will start to cry.. (Oh, not again!) I wish to be childish n believe tat there is always frenz forever.. I hate reality u noe, its so cruel.. Someone tell me b4, its normal however I juz cant accept the fact, if tis is wat a adult nid to do or wat reali mature is, I'll rather dun be 1..

Kit said it at 10:34:00 PM

Sunday, July 25, 2004

I had always sae, I had change.. To wat, I'm quite uncertain.. Mayb I started to understand now.. In the past, I wan to be a psychologist, although I still wish to but my will r weak now.. Ppl keep telling me, 'Psychologist? R u sure u wan to be 1? Can u be? I dun think so..' The first few times, I will juz ignore n think tat pls dun look down on me.. When more n more ppl telling me tis, my will is weaken, 'Ya, mayb I cant.. Its too hard for me to achieve..' I do told myself tis.. But y? Y I gif up on myself like wat other think? There is 1 more example.. 1 day, I saw a dress I like.. I reali wish to hav it, or I can sae, I set my eyes on it.. When the others tell me, it dun fit me, another 1 is better.. I was moved by their words.. When I was choosing, my eyes r still on tat dress instead of another 1.. However the others r telling me, 'No, its not nice, choose another 1..' Tis causes me do not dare to choose wat I reali like, I had felt the pressure.. At the end, I didnt choose any, I left the shop.. However the dress is still inside my heart, coz tat is wat I'm desire for.. Y I cant make decision 4 myself, or I should sae, I had made, but I'm worry bout how other look at me.. It is like during pri sch time, when the teacher ask who get tis ans, in the past, I juz rise my hand even though I'm alone.. But now, I dun dare to, in my mind is 'follow the majority, it will be rite..'

Wat wrong wif me? Making a mistake izzit so terrible? Or how other look at me? I tot I'm always a ppl who dun care how the others look at me so on? I was totally wrong, I was juz like others.. Doing smth is not 4 myself, instead its 4 others to look at.. Mayb u r in a dress tat whole world think its nice.. However u dun think so, is tis wat I wan? Now, I start to admire those who dare to sae,'tis is wat I wan, my mind is set..' Kit, where r u? U r not like tat in the past, u dare to do 2pid stuff n dun care how ppl look at u in the public.. Den y cant u on ur stand, dun move by others, go 4 wat u wan.. Isn't tat reason u agree wif the title kitminish which u make ur decisions despite of they r so diff frm others.. U start to live in other ppl world instead of ur own.. Kit, if tis continue, I'll hate u..

Kit said it at 6:03:00 PM

Saturday, July 24, 2004

I'm back to blog.. Thinking bout some weird stuff.. If one day u found out smth u believe in is not existed at all.. Or worst, its the opp wat u think it is.. How will u feel? Can u accept tat? 1 of the best example is like tis, Jesus, if he is not existed at all? How will all his followers feel? Worst, he is evil rather than holy? All these r juz 'if', so no offence.. However, ppl will start telling me, 'NO, it cant be! It wun happened.' However, nth is certain, the oni thing tat is certain is 'uncertain' itself.. Sound quite weird, wat am I toking bout? *Blur* Hopefully u all get wat I mean..

Hmm, its so fast.. I hav been in tis sch for 4 yrs.. Still remember 2 yrs ago, when I was watching the grad day'02 at the gallery.. Mr Ong came n told me tis,'Ur frenz r leaving, should be quite sad. Two yrs later, will be your turn..' Ya, 2 yrs had passed, its reali my turn now.. I hav tis mixed up feeling, wish to leave but oso dun wish to.. Frenz forever? Izzit true? Hmm, almost I'm quite thick skin but some words I juz cant sae out.. But 1 day I'm going to do so, if not I'll nv hav the chance to..

Kit said it at 11:29:00 PM

It seen a long time I didnt blog.. Tis few wks, I reali spend a lot, some of tis money hav to get frm my parents.. However, look at my phone bill last months, its $129! I had checked, its bcoz I spend too much on GPRS, its $66 alone.. Hmm, muz be those theme I dl, I dun think I'll dl anymore.. I nv tot its so ex.. So I oso changed my plan to iplan, meaning I got free incoming calls! I can chat on phone already.. I think I reali muz save up, one of the way is get back all the money ppl owe me, its a lot.. Dun wish to mention who r they n how much, its so bad..

I dunno y I wish to prepare 4 my grad nite now.. Coz I'm not a guy, who can prepare them all in 4 days.. Tis how I see my fren prepare last time, everything is around $100 4 guy.. As 4 gal, nid months to decide n not very cheap, better prepare now.. When prelim started, I dun think we had the time anymore.. Thinking of my sch, remind me of maths.. Its totally diff now! In the past, I hated amaths(oni at start of tis yr), however now, I understand them all in a few lessons.. Its not as hard as I tot, juz did I do my best anot.. I should work harder, dun wait, I dun hav much time.. Actually wat I wan is wat I got, its depend on did I treasure them anot.. Now my neighbour is playing music, the vol is so high.. But I dun reali mind coz he/she is playing all the song I like, eg Westlife n kenny G.. I think he/she mind get complain coz its still too loud.. Hmm, I had many thoughts, mayb I'll post it later on.. I going to hav my breakfast now..

Kit said it at 8:58:00 AM

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Ytd, bcoz home united came to our sch for donating money, we nid to perform once again.. Tis time I guess is better than the silver jubilee 1 but its not impt anymore.. Cheerleading, I think I hav to sae bye to u, should kept saying 'tat will be the last 1'.. Tis sudden performance coz ton of chao too.. Now everything had come to an end, I should feel relieve but I dun.. Haiz~ Y izzit so? Wat reali puzzle me? I'm still searching 4 the ans..

I reali reali feel like going to jungle.. Even if there is someone telling me tat jungle is full of dangers animals, I will still stick to my decision.. Lion n snake, they r indeed dangerous but they still lost to human being, which I think is the most scary animal I met.. Wat r human being, its either very friendly grp of ppl or ppl who will kill u w/o u knowing it.. (Hey, I'm not refering to anyone, was oni thinking bout all these..) Mayb tis is y human rule the world instead of the other animals.. Not bcoz we r the most hardworking or smartest, mayb bcoz we made use of each other to acheive wat we wan.. In order to protect ourselves, ppl start to build all these tall wall, so tat ppl wun attack them.. However, by doing so, ppl cant reali communicate wif each other, tis world will become so cold.. So wat is wrong wif tis world? Wat human being reali wan? Hmm.. Y am I such a busybody? Should not think too much now, coz I cant do much bout tis.. Feeling sleepy now, Gd nitez den..

Kit said it at 12:00:00 AM

Sunday, July 18, 2004

Hmm.. Blogger hav change over tis few days.. More choice 4 posting.. Its gd den.. Anyway, I'm not at home, at my granny home.. Ytd went out to celebrate clarence bdae(its todae, Happy bdae clarence!), we went 4 a movie first n den steamboat 4 our dinner.. So ytd, I made a big mistake, the showtime for the movie.. Still remember mark question me tis, r u reali sure yahoo can be trusted.. Ya, I should take his advice in the first place.. Sorri to make everyone to run 3 place 4 a movie.. The guy like johnny they all ask me, y we still wan to watch the movie? My ans is, we had ran so many place, we shouldn't give up.. lol~ So at last we manage to watch the movie at marina.. Its the same story as wat Tanapol tell me.. I think the story should be true den.. Chengyin n Cindy r the 2 most funny ppl ytd during movie.. They was like covering their face, keep asking wat happened or had the ghost gone.. Haha~ I think the movie is juz ok, not very scary.. I juz dun understand one thing, where is the last guy?

Aft tat, we had steamboat for dinner.. Hey, I saw firework there! I love it, I wan more! Haha~ Waiting 4 the arrival of aug.. Steamboat is like soup 4 me, coz I kept eating those ready fried stuff.. Its a waste of money 4 me coz I dun eat seafood.. We went to arcade to play, I'm not gd at these.. However Cindy n Clarence, they were playing like mad.. Haha~ So we had 2 game of bowling, smth I'm waiting 4 so long.. My skill was as bad as b4, nv reach 3 digit.. Still done some weird thing too, its me wat.. Still thinking of the ppl who taught me all these, its not easy at all coz I'm a slow learner.. I end up sleeping at my granny place coz we r in the same cab to amk.. Hmm, should stop here, I can hardly think now, juz recount wat happened ytd.. N oso, happy bdae Clarence! Muz grow up k.. Haha~

Kit said it at 7:30:00 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Actually ytd wish to blog but I didnt, coz aft making of chocolate n cleaning up.. The time is 12 plus, pretty late so I slept.. I felt its boring online, oni tis is diff, I still like to blog, put all my tot here.. If I'm not wrong, my real ppl is so diff frm tis blog, dunno how to put all these in words but I think its true.. Anyway, I mess up my house ytd but its worth it.. I gif some of tat to my parents, to them were quite amazing, coz I seldom made anything 4 them.. Den I bring them to sch tis morning, my classmate finish them, tis had made me more confident n delighted.. Now I understand, when ppl appreciated ur work done, tis will put on a smile on ur face, its like ur work is confirmed.. However I'm not great at all, I done a bad job, so diff frm jia quan.. Lol~ I can decribe him as a 'cook', I mean y not, he oni lack of cert 4 tat..

So tis few days were toking bout contact lenses n side effect.. I think many ppl cant believe tat I wear contact lense to slp up to 30days.. Quite normal 4 me, many ppl advise me not to, I'll go blind.. I'm aware of tat, seriously, my eyes experience prob already.. Like in a bright place, watever stuff I'm focus on, its a black patch.. So if I'm staring at smth, its quite normal.. Tok bout blindiness, I'm quite scare but oso quite prepare.. Taking down my contact lense let me feel burning hot, dun reali noe wat wrong wif tat.. 4get it den..

There is 1 more thing, bout dream tat u dun remember.. It always happen to me, juz like ytd.. I can predict wat everyone will sae later, its in my dream.. During half of the topic, I remember every single thing.. I juz stop my part by not saying wat I nid to sae(confusing huh?) However the conversation is totally the same, izzit tat scary? Does it mean a thing is mean to be happen, watever we done, we cant stop it? Do all these call fate? Den who set our fate? I tot its in our hand? Den y I cant control it? Hmm.. I think too much, it doesn't concern me anyway.. Does it?

Kit said it at 7:49:00 PM

Monday, July 12, 2004

Juz back home.. So sleepy now.. Anyway, hav my o level chinese oral todae.. Still quite ok, oni feel y izzit so fast tis time.. I kept smiling, coz I feel the topics r interesting but dun mean I'm doing very well.. So the topic is bout the charity show performance, like izzit rite to do stunt to attract ppl's donation.. N the second 1 is bout finish the work given at tat day, it lead me to pressure, lol~

I juz had a heavy lunch, feeling smth wrong now.. Mayb bcoz I'm not use to eating too much.. I cant eat a meal I think, too use to skipping meal ba.. Haiz~ should back to normal, or else will hav eating disorder sooner or later.. Pls dun, its pretty terrible, scare of tat.. It made u lighter but fatter, it defeat the purpose!

Thinking bout the silver jubilee sale tis morning, its not up to sch expectation.. We oni earn around $700++ 4 both stalls.. It mean we oni can get back 20% of tat, meaning, we made a loss.. So the 6 of us self absorb part of the cost.. I dun understand smth, where come to help, the other dun wan.. Since u dun wish to help, its ok.. But profit n loss tis type stuff should be expected.. Y in the end, when everyone noe tat we made a loss, they juz put the blame on us.. At time word is reali louder than action, ppl juz noe how to tok.. If u do smth gd, the other may not appreciate, they juz share the joy or fruit.. If u made a loss like wat we did, the finger will be pointing at u.. It will be none of their business.. Hmm.. I do admit I'm oso like tat at time but y izzit so? I guess human should vanish on tis earth, coz they r a batch of selfish animal.. Oops, wat am I toking bout?!

Kit said it at 7:01:00 PM

Sunday, July 11, 2004

Hmm.. Going to slp soon.. Was listening to home.. Feeling like.. Ya, its my country.. Although at time, I dun reali like s'pore, due to too much reasons.. But when I come to think of it, I'm lucky living here, everything is prepare 4 me, wat I still nid? My aunt was telling me juz now bout living in elsewhere like USA or Austraila, tis made me so sad.. I wish to stay here, mayb go oversea 4 fun or study.. Coz I set my mind once, here is where I belong, where I grow up.. Now, I noe wat NDP is to me, its when I remember where I belong where everyone heart beat as one.. Mayb ppl reading will think tat it sound silly.. However tis time, think bout it, wat ur feeling 4 tis island?

So was looking for ffviii online..(not again rite?) I found tis interesting thing.. Dunno was it real, its kinda long.. I'll paste it here..

A Song(eyes on me) inspired to the one and only Piano lady, Julia Heartilly after he encounter one night with Laguna Loire. It was probably love at first sight, or they where watching each other - both him and her - from afar for a long time. Julia always had a dream to sing, but never had the words to write a wonderful song that she always wished she could, but when she encounted Laguna, it was like it all flew to her in a magical way. Laguna probablly did the same as just the song said - he promised to come back to her, but he never did come back. Instead she settled for marrying General Caraway - Whom is Rinoa's father. Julia gave Birth to Rinoa probably a couple years afterwards, she then later a few years after died in a car crash. Horrible fate for the woman - who was just waiting for her love to return, but he never did. Laguna just later moved on and moved to Winhill for a few years, right after a horrible accident. While there he fell in love with a woman named "Raine Leonhart." While there, he met Ellone, who became sorta like a father figure to her. Laguna one night did propose to Raine, and they ended up getting married. Laguna later went off to explore the world so he could write magazine's for "The Timber Maniacs." At that time, Raine was pregnant, but she never told Laguna. Raine also died while giving birth to Squall. Thus, Squall and Ellone where sent to Edea's Orphanage.

When you think about it, it's sort of strange.
Laguna = Squall's Father
Julia = Rinoa's Mother

Both Laguna and Julia where in love - at least for the few nights they had ever encounted each other, but they never had a chance to be, which in the end, might be a good thing, otherwise the Squall and Rinoa would of never been born, and the pairing on the two could not be possible.

How izzit? Kinda amazing rite? lol~ Hav to slp now, cya~

Kit said it at 10:58:00 PM

Hmm.. Tis few days r reali tiring day but luckily there's still some fun, so its ok den.. So on Fri, we went to buy stuff n went to cindy house.. On tat day, we reali nid to consume time.. Specially in the evening, me n jia quan were like playing amazing race! We rush here n there to get wat we nid.. Den later cindy oso join us 4 tis race.. We bought even more thing, I think everything had more than 20kg I guess.. So we oso nid the others' help to carry.. Each of other r playing a diff part to make tis thing a success one.. So the other left around 11 plus n we turn in at 1:30am.. The next morning is kinda busy, again rushing against time to be in sch in time..

Heard tat the opening ceremany is quite nice, too bad I missed it.. I didnt reali do much in the stall.. I was walking around most of the time, a lot of thing r expensive.. Bcoz of tis, I nearly 4get bout my performance.. There is 1 thing I'm wrong, last concert dun mean no ppl, instead there's many ppl.. Seriously, I made too much mistakes, however when I ask around, ppl sae we r doing well, hopefully they didnt bluff us.. Aft tat, we wanted to play but everywhere is full, tat so sad.. hmm, when everything ended, I was so tired, can slp anywhere.. So I spent a nite at my granny house, slp till very late.. Dun wish to write too much bout my feeling, coz my head is totally blank now.. Mayb some other day, I'll blog again.. So cya~

Kit said it at 2:16:00 PM

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Hmm.. Anyway, I wish to start wif tis.. Tis few days I'm over sensitively n insensitively.. How to put it.. Its like too sensitively to myself but not sensitively to other.. So once again, I think n quite sure I'm back.. There no time 4 me to think bout all these stuff coz time r running up 4 everything.. The world wun stop 4 me while I'm thinking.. And oso I hav lot of things to sae.. Erm still thinking should I sae it, coz its kinda.. Ok, 4get it, should juz admit my mistake.. Sorri 4 the ppl I neglected, They r Cindy n Chengyin.. Thx 4 ppl tat r there to listen to my 2pid crap which I still cant figure out some bits n pieces, they r mark n ivon n some other ppl like the boys.. The boys r bcoz their action make me laugh n relax but not the chun mei thing.. I'll sae it here tat I reali dun like it, coz I dun like her, pls stop it or I'll reali angry liao.. Suppose to sae all these in reali life not online, but den words juz cant came out of my mouth sometime.. Its almost there but I juz swallow it back.. Hmm, y human care so much bout their pride, no 1 noe..

So I'm back to normal, izzit gd or bad? Gd is I feel relive once again.. Bad is, I'll still as mad as b4, do wat I use to do.. Seriously, tis is wat I am.. Y muz I care bout how ppl look at me.. They had their choice, I hav my choice to take it to heart or not too.. So watched another movie, mean gal.. Tis time wif ivon, I'm not alone, not trying to enclose myself again..(Sound like animal but dunno wat the rite word to use)Thinking bout if tat happened in my clz? I admit my clz gal a bit like tat but not so terrible.. They still can be nice ok.. Its better to look at other gd point than bad.. Coz by saying someone bad dun make me gd either.. But I'm not angel, so at time still will.. Hmm, haha..

I feel so relieve now aft saying watever thing in my heart.. Its like throwing all the stones into the sea!(In the first place, y should I carry?) Mayb tis is wat blog mean 4, its to write down ur tot not oni ur daily life.. Hmm, I remember someone, its jason, I hav some advices here, I think it will reali offence u.. Erm, pls dun mention smoking n drinking until so proud, coz in anyway I dun think it do u help.. I truely tell u tis hope u will listen n think bout it, or else I cant do anything, no offence.. Oh ya, I found tis story in popular ytd, its bout shell n pearl.. There's tis thing like dust tat always irriate the shell.. It trying to get rid of it, yet it cant.. So shell settle all these down n it become the world most beautiful thing(mayb to some ppl?), a pearl.. Izzit tat nice? Tis apply to life to, dun wish to further explain it, coz I'm rather hungry, get my dinner n slp ba.. Will blog in a few days time den.. Cya..

Kit said it at 10:14:00 PM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Hello! Everyone pls look here.. I hope tat all my frenz read my blog, coz I dun dare to voice out in real life, oni in tis blog.. Its so diff frm wat I think, I support voice ur view but not doing so.. So ironic.. Nowaday, I was thinking far too much thing, it reali thinking I can sae.. I guess I'll reali type a lot in tis blog..

Todae I went to watch Spiderman 2 alone, dunno y, rather be alone.. Tis time again, my emotion dun match my thinking.. I do wish to hav someone there, can u all understand wat I wana to sae? Hopefully u all do.. The show not as bad as I think coz it not oni bout fighting.. There 1 thing spiderman said, its smth like tis.. At time, u hav to do the rite thing, to do so, u may hav to give up ur dream.. Isn't tat sad? Is life reali so? I dun believe, choose not to believe.. Coz w/o hope, a person is juz living dead.. Tis wat I can sae.. Tis remind me bout smth else..

I had a tok wif chuanyao in clz, ask him bout when he leave.. Den oso asked him bout his frenz.. His ans is when he left, his frenz will find new best frenz, so dun nid to worry.. I dun understand, y is he so cold? Tis is not cool at all! He think tat no 1 care bout his presence, its so unfair to his frenz.. Tis brought me back now, the last yr of secondary sch life.. I hav both views, leaving here coz the sch not reali gd.. Go aft name than anything else.. I dun wish to, bcoz of my frenz.. Tat y I wish I wun grow up.. As 4 mark, he wished to leave, asap.. Think of smth again..

As everyone noe, I'm a joker, or even drama.. Ppl gif me all kind of names.. At time, I cant take it anymore, I dunno express them, oni by using violent.. Overall, ppl feel its juz a game, a childish act, but I'll hurt by it.. Coz I take thing too seriously, I'm too sensatively to myself.. Its a weakness but I cant change it.. I dunno how to tell the world, 'I dun like u all to do so..' Cant scold ppl too, they were juz joking, they may not mean it n they dunno tis small joke mean so much to me.. Dun wish to tok bout tis, I had already messed up by wat I sae..

So now the main thing I nid to concentrate is the silver jubilee.. I reali scare tat we cant get those items.. Den tis oso will be my last performance.. Coz aft tis, I'm stepping down..Mayb.. Reali mayb aft tat, I'll miss tis type of life.. A life tat work so hard to prepare smth.. I think aft tis is over, den I settle my own prob.. Or I can sae, try to run away again, facing it is not easy at all..

Kit said it at 7:11:00 PM

Monday, July 05, 2004

Tis morning was watching the final of Euro2004.. Portugal against Greece, its miracle tat Greece won.. According to news, they r cold horse, those reali reali cold till ppl wun notice.. If u sae at the start tat Greece will win tis yr, ppl will think u r mad.. Despite tat, they passed quarter final, semi final n even to the final! The team they faced once is the France, the defending champ.. N now they won Euro2004, its a legend, its a dream.. Lol, I sae till like I'm totally support them but I'm not since the start.. I dun even reali care bout them.. Frm tis small match I did learn smth, miracle do happened n nth is impossible.. Sound 2pid rite? All these were oni some encourage sentences to me n I believe to many in the past.. However, we had witness it, dream do come true.. Juz belief, hopes r important too, w/o hopes u wun work toward it.. Anyway, y I'm toking like tis? Weird rite? Lol~

Ok, in the afternoon during Clarence's The Afternoon Show.. My com hav some prob, it crush.. The first time tat come to my mind, its merry christmas.. Lol~ I'm too lame but tis is me.. Now its back to normal, but all the files I lost is far too much.. 500 plus of songs, how long do I nid to get them back? So tis few days is nearly impossible 4 me to deejay.. Haiz~ I think everything has to start frm zero once again.. Tis is how I spent my youth day, so much thing happened.. I better slp now, coz will hav a busy day tml.. Ya, I seriously dun look forward to silver jubilee.. Weird rite but I hav my own reasons.. Should end here b4 too much insulting sentences coming out..

Kit said it at 11:25:00 PM

Saturday, July 03, 2004

Listening to reflection now.. Its juz nice la, coz I'm on air now.. Reali think bout the lyrics, its reali apply to me.. Toking to mark juz now.. Was thinking wat wrong wif me? Coz I'm not myself anymore, I care bout ppl comment bout me.. How other look at me, frm a speaker to a listener.. Y izzit so, I miss myself, sound 2pid but true.. At time, I wish to be alone, so frenz out there, next time if u see me alone, dun feel sad or neglect.. Coz I wan it tis way.. Who am I? Why am I like tat.. Its a series of questions I cant ans myself.. I felt like going out alone nowaday, although halfway I'll bored n msg ppl, sound ironic.. Still the same, I wan to go to a place alone, best will be jungle or seaside.. A place tat I can reflect myself.. Hopefully I will.. Too much I wish to sae now but I can hardly put them in words.. Or else tis blog will be flooded by me once more..

There's is 1 more ppl I'm thinking bout.. Haiz~ I juz sae the name, I mean nth to hide.. He is chuanyao, feel like toking to him.. Its like, he is the 1 who always gif me direct ans tat make sense.. Seriously those ans r on others' mind but den ppl normall ppl dun sae out, its offensive.. Prob is, aft last yr, whenever I tried to tok to him.. He will feel I had motive so on, I mean seriously am I tis type of ppl? I wish to noe.. Tell me on my shoutbox pls~ I cant understand y everything we both tok, quarrel will always appear, 2pid rite.. Listening to If your heart not in it, the lyrics down there, can u all see? But tis song dun apply to him but someone else.. Where past is the history.. Anyway, Chuanyao, if u see tis, pls msg me can? I mean reali is chat, got too much thing to sae..

Kit said it at 11:53:00 PM