say it.
But I am me.
And you are you.
We're Chuck and Blair.
Blair and Chuck.
The worst thing you've
ever done, the darkest
thought you've ever had,
I will stand by you
through anything.
This is my last post in 2008, another 6 more hours to go to 2009.. Looking back into 2008, there are many events in my life.. Starting from attachment in HS, busy with all kind of ACE audit.. People there are irritated by my department but they still treat us (Darren and I) well as we always help whenever we can.
Next will be be graduation, mark an end to 3 years of my poly life. Although many of us go separate ways, we still keep in contact, make an effort to meet up each other. Straight after graduation, some of us receive some good news from NTU.. This news bring a big smile to our face and give us a title call undergraduate.. Although we did not know how tough University life will be, what really lie in front of us, we accept the challenge of NTU.
Before I get into NTU, I worked part time in Anderson Primary School and learnt driving at the same time. My driving was suck like hell initially. And guess what, practise really make perfect! After like 30 lessons, I finally know how to operate on this machine call car! What more, my parents allow me to drive on my own now!
2 different FOC camps start my brand new chapter in NTU; they are Insinyur Camp and Hall 16 Camp. Through these 2 camps I came to know about many new faces and make many new friends. Although I am not very united with both Aragon and Ninja, I still feel very delighted to be in these 2 OG group. We had all sort of fun during the camp, I hope this will not end there, neither will it end in 2008. Pass it on.
My hall life is very interesting, I will not say I am very high profile but at least some people know my existence in this hall. Thinking back about my first month in hall, join many activities like IHG and events. Through the activities I know more people like Jimmy, Kenneth, Regent, Raymond and Chris. Very soon, scandal about Chris and I were all over the hall and we really got together. These 3 months we are very close and know more about each other every day. Outsiders think that we are very lovely and sweet together. However we tried very hard to make each other happy. This relationship did not last long but we never regret as it bloomed beautiful once before it died off.
Beside this love life, not forgetting my study in NTU, I realise it is so different from poly where you went for lecture and pay attention and you will eventually get it and go for exam.. In university, you really need to work your ass off if you want good grade, no more last min work, you should start working even at the start of the semester. Come to think about it, 1 semester is only about 3-4month, we should just work hard to get our degree. For my 1st semester, I kept telling myself, I want to start a brand new semester right, only starting it right will bring me good grade. So I did not get very upset regarding the bad grades cause I deserve it. No more running away, face it and work hard. This will be 1 of my new year resolution.
Not to forget the first big event I had organised in my entire life. EXPOSED which became SEXPOSED to Ninja, LOL.. At some stages, I really feel like giving up on it, it is not easy at all to organise an event. Plus all the other thing like study and breakup came in between, they just add in more difficulties for this event. Glad that this event is a successful 1, it is not a big big big event that everyone just got a shock but at least it caught many people attention. We did it! We survived through it!
So for my 2009 new year resolution, it must be very fruitful as it is a year that I will be turning 21st which mean I am an adult.. No longer a little girl trying to get everything using my willfulness.
1) Study hard, I always want a brand new start over, now is my chance, don't waste it and ask for another 1. I do not want to regret on my decision.
2) Be nice to all my friends, do you all know that my friends are very concern about me when my relationship ended? I feel so blessed that I got such a big group of good friends. It is not 1 or 2, it is a huge group, both secondary sch and poly friends. I am very suprise about it, they can just go serve you right or what can I say and ignore me but they did not. Sad to say, I still disappointed them in some ways. Please don't worry about me, I will be fine one day, I just need some times.
3) Recover from my heartache. I still cannot totally get over it but time will make this feeling fade away.
4) Extreme makeover for my room! Hehehe.. After 10 years of the same furniture, its time to decorate my room on my own! Buy new bed frame, study table and everything, paint my room and make it into world of my own!
5) Learn some new skills, I still cannot decide what kind of new skills I want to learn this year, be it photo shop, water sport or music instrument, I just want to learn something new! I am still young, I want to live my life to the fullest.
Something that I learn: Life isn't that bad and unfair. All these depend on how you look at it. If you think that you are very pity, you will eventually become the lead actor/actress of a tragic drama. In another word, when you think that you are very lucky, you will be very lucky. 相信就行，不相信就不行! Just like my favourite 4 leaves clover; Hope, Faith, Love, Luck. Never lose HOPE in yourself, have FAITH in whatever you do, LOVE yourself and everyone around you and LUCK will eventually come.
Kit said it at 5:40:00 PM
Sunday, December 21, 2008
I love this song and Chuck Bass.. He is so special and so what he is a womanizer, at least his heart belong to Blair.. Lucky Blair!
Kit said it at 10:37:00 PM
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Oh my god.. I lost my handphone! This is the 6th handphone I lost in my life.. And the last time that I lost my phone was in my secondary school.. This handphone was given to me by my ex-bf and I love it a lot.. My hp pouch was almost lost few day ago, it took me quite a while to find it, however I lost it again with my handphone.. Mayb it is indicating that I should just leave my past behind.. Haiz~
Kit said it at 10:36:00 AM
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Finally feeling much much more better.. Many friends have showed their concerns for me.. Thank you, I am really fine now.. I understand that life still needs to move on and I will.. This is how the world works.. I don't know how is him now, I think he hurts much more than I do as he needs to have a lot of courage to tell me these.. I can just easily blame him if I want to and act like a stupid victim but he has no 1 to blame.. Thankfully that he has very very good buddies, they will take care of him.. I wish I am one of them too..
I begin to understand what my dad tell me in the past.. My bro and I always want to revenge on my uncle for what he did to my dad.. My dad just been very silly and treat him nicely.. He told me this, 'Why do you want to take revenge? Do seeing someone in their sorry state make you feel better? Why would you want to make thing so terrible for everyone? What did you gain at the end of the day? You might even hurt yourself more.. Angry or hating someone will only make yourself more tired, more unhappy..' Isn't this so true?
Kit said it at 3:49:00 PM
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Chris and I ended.. I was very depressed but I did not know how to cry anymore.. I kind of expected that we will not last but I was still not prepared for it.. I guess losing him is my lost this time round, he is really a nice guy.. Among all my boyfriends, he is the best.. He is so perfect till I do not know how to be angry with him when he finally voiced out..
Chris, I never regret to love you for the past 3 months.. I didn't know I make you feel so miserable.. I just want to tell you, I am glad that I met you and fall in love with you.. I hope you feel the same too.. I think you are very silly, you should tell me at the start that how you feel instead of suffering yourself.. Please please please be cheerful.. Seeing you smile really brighten up my day.. I'll miss you and give you my blessing.. All the best.. If you need help, I will always be here for you..
